11/17/05 08:40 am
I love how I have my priorities in order. I really need to get some reading done for Philosophy and Psychology, but instead I'm updating on my e-journal. Thumbs up for me.
I kind of wish I brought my camera last night to the Dillinger Escape Plan show. Holy shit. Last time I saw a band have that much energy was when I saw Converge. Or maybe The Mars Volta. The vocalist was all up climbing on the walls (on top of the speakers) and practically hanging from the ceiling. Yeah... so much energy. I loved it. The other bands were great too, I quite like HORSE the band and Hella now. Between the Buried and Me played too... eh, they weren't bad, but I didn't find their music anything too special. Hella was sort of hard to get into, but I can definitely appreciate their music. But mmm... much love for Dillinger Escape Plan. I sort of wanted to join in all the thrashing happening, but I knew I had a midterm the next morning, plus I saw a lot of guys twice my size come out of the pit after a few songs all dazed and probably hurting. My friend Brian who went, who's like twice the size of me, ended up spraining his knee really bad too. :\
So I finally got to meet Dave as well. He lives like a five minute walk from me, but we never really hung out before, heh. He seemed really nice though, so I'm hoping the not-hanging-out thing will change. And wow, his lip piercings. So hot. I've actually been thinking of getting a lip ring or a labret sometime soon, but we'll see. I kind of need to read up about it first, and make sure I know a decent place to get one. Money's probably an issue there too.
So a brief update on my 'dating-life' before I get back to studying. Sometimes I'm hesitant to write about it, but I guess trying to put it in words sort of helps things become more clear for me. Anyway, I'm starting to think that I have a 'boyfriend'. Well, I know I don't actually have a boyfriend, but I'm starting to think things are leading towards a boyfriend. This potential boyfriend being Johan. I've been spending a lot of time with him lately, all his friends call us a 'couple', and we've had some really amazing conversations lately. I think it was about a month ago, soon after I met him, we were talking about relationships and he said that he wasn't really looking for anything serious now, especially because he just got out of a long term relationship. So a few nights ago I told him I was curious why he didn't want a relationship right now - if it was because he wanted his space/freedom, or if it was because he wanted to be free to date other girls, or whatever. And the first thing he said was that it seemed like I misinterpretted his words, that he didn't mean to say a relationship was out of the question. And then he told me how he's never tried dating two girls at the same time, how he just couldn't do it. So being free to date other girls wasn't the reason there either. So I'm not quite sure what that means. He did tell me that it was sort of a relief breaking up with his now-ex because she was a bit clingy and had some personal problems. But the fact that he's not interested in dating anyone else, the fact that we talk every day and pretty much see each other every day, the fact that I'm getting to know all his friends and they all assume that we're together, the fact that I go over to his place to cuddle and have these long conversations and fall asleep next to him, well... all of this is sort of leading me to think that things are becoming more serious with him. Which is all fine and dandy, really. I just have a slight dilemma that hopefully I'll be taking care of today. And that dilemma is Quentin. Yes, I am still 'dating' him. At least I think I am. I talk with Quentin online a lot, but it's not like we see each other that often anymore. I'm busy with school, he has work, we have different things happening on the weekends and such. So when we see each other it's maybe once a week, and it's usually just to watch a movie or walk around downtown or grab coffee or something. So it's pretty much very casual dating as of now. Which is nice, I really don't have any complaints. The only thing is, is that if things start to get more serious with Johan or if I do end up in a relationship with him I wouldn't want to still be dating Quentin on the side. So my plan is to talk with Quentin tonight just to see where we stand, if what he has in mind was to date other people and yeah... I don't know. I just want to talk with him, about 'us'. And I can assume how he feels as much as I want, but assuming is almost never any good.
I've realized it's so much easier to talk about things that I normally have a hard time talking about if I bring them up with the person early on when I get to know them. Not too early mind you, that'd probably just scare some people away, heh. But I brought up the topic of relationships with Johan pretty soon after I met him, and now I feel like it's so much easier to ask him about 'us' or about relationships, whereas I get sort of nervous thinking about bringing it up with Quentin because I rarely have these conversations with him. Well, you live and learn I guess. The plan is to bring it up with Quentin before or after the movie tonight (we're going to go watch Saw II), so yeah.... wish me luck.